Under the Priesthood Authority of God I was set apart as an ambassador and servant of the Lord Jesus Christ! I had the opportunity to stand as a witness of Him and proclaim His glad message. His message of Grace and Freedom from bondage and sin. His message of Eternal Families, Atonement, Prophets and the list goes on. When I was set apart I was given a gift. This gift is the Spirit in richer abundance. I had to work for this gift let me tell you, but it was given to me to help God's children return unto Him. I was able to hear the sweet whisper of the Spirit. The third member of the Godhead.
As Christ says in the scriptures, "I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you (John 14:18). But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid (John 14:26-27). These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world (John 16:33).
Here are just a few scriptures of our Savior's love to us. He has given the Holy Ghost to help us and guide us! Now when we ignore His counsel He leaves us for a time, until we go again seeking His help.
Now to the part of my mission I miss the most. I miss all of it. I miss the WICKED AWESOME MEMBERS, teaching the Gospel, enjoying the Great Tennessee State, wearing the name of Jesus Christ upon my shoulder! But there is something I miss soo much. This is the extra abundance of the Spirit of Christ. I was able to feel and know the will of God through the Holy Ghost. I was able to be taught and listen to counsel from my Heavenly Father and His Son Jesus Christ. I am not saying I don't have the Spirit now but I don't have the extra abundance of the Spirit. It is much harder to receive that counsel I was given on my mission. Honestly I wish I would have figured out what I should do in life, which princess I shall be sealed to for time and all eternity and where I shall go but that is not why I was there. I was there or others not myself. Now I would absolutely love to move back to Nashville. It will take some time if I do, but I would love that! I wish to be able to be there where I laboured in the Lord's vineyard with those I worked with. They mean soo very much to me. Whether it was one appointment or months of meeting with them they are all special.
I always said I was gonna come home and go out with missionaries. Well I have not made it yet. It is not my fault either because I have called left messages, told them I am willing to go out and everything. I have tried but they dont want the help. It has saddened me, but I then realize what it must have been like for those members who wanted to help but we didn't have stuff to do because missionary work was hard and areas were dead in missionary terms. We would just end up contacting people and they hated when we didn't have set appts. It was a waste of their precious time. It was so tough to be a missionary. So many marvelous memories came from my mission though. The times where we were able to sit in on lessons where the members family taught the Gospel.
I would do anything to be given that special call again! It blessed many lives including mine in many ways. I look back on my mission and realize what I was doing and am so happy I did it. The knowledge(inside joke- yes Elders even on Marriage), eye opener, and friends will always be remembered.
For those missionaries that their missions will end. Not to scare you by any means but just know that the Spirit will leave to a certain degree and it is going to be very difficult. Cherish the time you have left with such a wonderful gift and do what you can. Don't get trunky but when you get home it gets very busy and tough to do the things you are used to on the mission.